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wyn.

Walking Around In Circles

i always need to know what i should be doing. always.

wyn.

THANK HEAVENS!

I am OFFICIALLY not a Griffith University student.

:) life is back on track and i can not be anymore relieved.
which brings me to really understand the situation, classes start next week!?

i am totally not in the ready-to-study mood coz i havent had the opportunity to psych myself up for studying again. okay, so totally nerdy, but i miss studying! come on, i was on a more than 5 months study break. how can i not?!

which brings me to another point, im reeeally freaked out! :D a real uni student.
teehee*


wyn.

Acceptance

"the stages of our grief: anger, fear, guilt, depression, acceptance." - lucas scott.

im feeling better today. nothing's resolved yet but nevertheless,im feeling better.


wyn.

I Find My Solace

Live Like You're Dying by Lenka.

I'll take every moment, I know that I own them.
It’s all up to you to do whatever you choose.
Live like you’re dying and never stop trying.
It’s all you can do, use what’s been given to you.

All of the moments you didn’t notice;
gone in the blink of an eye.
All of the feelings you couldn’t feel
no matter how you try.

I'll take every moment, You know that you own them.
It’s all up to you to do whatever you choose.
Live like you’re dying and never stop trying.
It’s all you can do, use what’s been given to you.

wyn.

Meltdown

WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!

I Wish The World Away

maybe its a sign that i should just stop studying and be a housewife or work in the kebab shop till i die. maybe its not too long before its time for me to die so its a sign to tell me i shouldnt waste my dad's money.

FUCK.

seriously. i dont think i was this pissed when the whole blowout with my stupid student visa happened and i had to go home for freaking 5 days and come back to australia.

i have the most stupid and useless agent in the fcking world. and i fucking hate griffith university.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED.

as you all know i got an offer to study at UQ which is (compared to griffith) heaven on earth and griffith is like a piece of shit at the side of the road.

in order for me to enrol and official be a UQ student, i need to obtain a thing called "release letter" from griffith. and that was the first thing i did when i got back to brisbane, apply for it. what i was suppose to get done in 5 days took them more than a week.

and when i finally got it yesterday night after coming home from work is "you have changed your mind about your course and is not grounds for approval" REJECTED.

apparently, accepting the offer to do my foundation at QIBT also means i've accepted the offer to study at griffith which now i cant weasel my way out of. (a little known fact that my idiot agent forgot to mention)

when asked yesterday night about it, he said, "no no. we didnt accept griffiths' offer." WELL apparently,old man, we DID. and now i'm bloody stuck.

i feel so defeated right now and so pissed off that all this kinds of shit have to happen. and NO, i am not going to walk away learning a new lesson or having another story to tell, im gonna walk away with the deepest hatred for a fucking Uni and also a fucking idiotic start to my education year.

so now what?

my choices:

1. (which is what i am doing now) write a letter to appeal and HOPE to god that they approve it this time and hope to god that they approve it in time. (before the 2nd of March, which is much time and i've already missed the orientation for UQ)

2. if its rejected: study for 6 months in fucking griffith and then transfer credits in July to UQ. basically lose the fight and give the fucking people at griffith what they wish would happen.

3. if its rejected: go back to KK for 6 months, reapply for visa and everything again and only start my studies in July.

though most people think this is the best option. i get to go home, take a rest and join parents in going to holidays and shiz, i DO NOT want this.

i just want things to go according to plan for once. :(

my boss told me at work yesterday, "if there is a mountain up ahead of you, dont be scared. say, even if i have to EAT it up, i'll eat the whole entire thing up."

i wish i have the strength for that, i really do.

but i dont. and right now i wish to disappear because i feel so incredibly hopeless and lost and i just want to wish the world away.

what have i done to anyone to be rewarded with such bad luck?


wyn.